this isn't supposed to be here

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i think there's something rather wrong with me these days and ahhh i'm going mad i refuse i refuse it can't be i don't know...

it's just that

ahhhh

ok fine. its like... the way you look i like you without your specs you seem so deep and serious and so oh wow fall in loveable you actually look really to use an overused phrase hot and i really am falling for you again am i no i refuse whyyyy
theres all the time you spend with me theres all the stuff you tell me and share with me and how you laugh and like the things you like and how you sigh and argh i'm really going mad
mad girls rant yeah fine since i'm started i'll go on i like you i like you i'm a little sure that i do cause i used to and now its starting all over again only different cause now i really know you and i know what you like and what you don't and how you act when you're this and that and oh...
and its because i know what you like that i think you could never never like me as well if that even makes sense if i even am liking you if i am simply confusing myself over a moment's strange musing and if i do if i even do its no use i could never say so and i could never tell you and you would never like me either because i know now i'm just supposed to be your friend and i shall always enjoy your company as a friend and nothing else
it can never be anything else
can it

and nooooooooooooo i'm going mad i am going mad i don't know ahhhhh

i refuse to

i refuse i refuse i refuse

noooooooooo

i'm sorry.

i'm so sorry.

i really truly am.