imperfect

was in church today and the pastor was talking about love. then one of the things he said was this:

our mind is like a compass. it can focus on many things throughout the day, but in our quiet moments, it will turn to the objects of our greatest affections.

and also:

where our treasure is, our heart will be also.

and i suppose it's true. before, when i let my mind wander, it would always end up thinking of kylie and rashi and school and other stuff like that (dayeds perhaps). but nowadays i find that, like a compass, it'll go straight to walker. usually. and i don't know... i don't day him. we're just friends ... right?
and i don't love him that way either. least not yet.
i dunno
i love him i love him i love him... i do? no no no....
mm hmm.

lately been addicted to moulin rouge songs!!! "elephant love medley" "come what may" "lady marmalade" "your song" whee!!! got the soundtrack from dom. yayayay loooooooooop
haha

mm yay. talking to darryl A LOT now. and doing crazy stuff that comes from living at the hostel and from just darryl. yesterday i ran off from the table when i was bored and he decided to chase me. we went along the canteen to the corridor outside the theatrette (freaked a few people out) at high speed. then i decided to try and dodge him after having the notion that he was possibly faster than me (i still can't tell who's faster though i think he probably is) so i started randomly changing directions. yay! made a round about back toward canteen but then came back and ran up to the basketball court. jumped down to the gym area and finally stopped at the place with all the bars haha. we're so crazy. and bored. he didn't catch me, though that was probably on purpose. haha fun though
he calls me sweety. his voice echoes in my head.
runnnnnnn

mmm the curious incident of the dog in the night time! read it in year one when i picked it up off the school library shelf (i find a lot of good books that way) and it's so cool cause now a lot of ppl are doing book reviews on it. it's a really good book. really. i can't describe it properly, cause it's that good, and cool, and weird, and genius, so go read it yourself. xD

mm kylie fell down on thursday and got a pretty bad cut on her right leg. ouch. well it looked ouch. it's like a little curve like a nike tick with the short end really REALLY deep. so i think it looks like a shooting star. i think it's gonna look like one when i heals. the scar that is. my sister has one like that too, but on her knee. haha

shooting stars....
"i love you very much, even more than the stars sprinkled across the sky - can you count them?"
yay thanks kylie
mm butterflies are to me a symbol of growing up. my mum bought me a necklace with a pink and purple butterfly design on it when i first ... nevermind. let's just say i was growing up. like a symbol yeah? then before i left hong kong my sister bought me one of those little things to put on your handphones. it's two pink butterflies. really nice! i still havent put it on my handphone cause i know with all the knocking around i do with it it'll break real soon. so i keep it in my cupboard.

mmm hmmm

yay. obs tomorrow. really looking forward to it. adventure! yay!!!
XD
for some reason wishing to be in the same watch as him
yeah. dinner time now. darryl went to damien's house for a sleepover so i'm feeling so lonely ... XD lol yeah

(Lonely (the song) loops)
miss you
haha. see ya all!

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mm just a few extra words here. after reading kylie's blog...

mm yeah another thing the pastor said today:
love is a question of will as much as of emotion. if you want to love someone, you will.

like.... how when your mum was bringing you up when you were a baby, and had to take care of you, changing your diapers and feeding you and waking up in the middle of the night to your crying to cradle you back to sleep... well i suppose if love was just emotion, she would have given up loving us back then. but will kept her going, keeps us all going. sometimes you don't feel like loving someone, but you still want to, and i suppose you still do, cause if everyone gave up loving just cause they didn't feel like it then the world would be really sad. so yeah... i think we can choose who we love. love involves will, and choice.

and i choose to love you guys! haha.