unnecessary

there are... so many things i want to say, to certain people. but i don't want to say them or i can't say them because it's just too awkward or unnecessary.

(if it is prayer that will solve everything...)

i apologise, for not being able to be the one, that one, that you are hoping for. i hope you know what i mean.

i am ever so thankful, that you are taking these steps, after this time. i pray that it'll grow well (like a seed, planted by the water).

i am glad to be able to share this time with you, i truly am. hopefully you feel the same too. i wouldn't have it any other way.

are you truly afraid? please don't doubt that we'll be anything but there for you, no matter what. it's ok to share, it's ok to cry. don't shut it all away, please don't.

it is strange, seeing you after all this time. i do miss you, i wonder how this will go. maybe a better ending than what i imagined.

~

this year is going to be weird... but really fun, i suppose. besides the fact that everyone's here in the hostel (which greatly increases the funness factor... and weirdness to some extent), there's also my new class, which is... really strange. a collection of people from the scattered corners of every clique imaginable. plus the pro-ness coming from a certain few people... intimidation? heh. in terms of talkability, i guess it's the easiest with shu xian. in terms of lose-ability, there's leroy. heh XD. great i lost. and then there's doro and steph a bit too who've known for so long but never been that close with, but they're nice, so whee. tessa, kinda. everyone else is downright foreign. i guess?

the social dynamics of this class are going to be interesting...

hmm. today was really different, from usual life here.

woke up to the sound of... divya's blender alarm clock, and her hairdryer after that. and voices, laughing in the morning. i guess everyone's excited. janel came over to our room later on, and we walked over to hers too. breakfast was better than before, i think. blueberry tarts!

is it just me, or were the talks remarkably less boring than usual? or maybe it's really just the excitment getting to me... well i wasn't all that bored. LCS is my mentor for the next two years... it's going to be... interesting, i guess?

went to sign huiyin's book after that.

after school we went to the pool room, then music room B. slacked around, started writing a song with movin, played lots of guitar, slacked some more...

afterwards we went out for dinner at the prata shop. i crashed divya's house after that and we watched oliver and company XD, well a part of it anyway.

whee...

i wonder what tomorrow will bring.