filled

which is a word that describes my day.

woke up at 5.45 to randomly watch the sunset which i eventually ended up missing, set up and ran the mafia booth which turned out to be extremely fun but nowhere near as profitable, changed a lot of original plans and went ice skating which i haven't done for ages and played mafia on ice, and then rushed to chinatown to watch a forum theatre by our drama instructor and friends. came back to the hostel at 10 plus so that i could go online to work on english, which i am doing now, and which i need a slight break from.

somehow days like this seem to last for almost two days in my mind, stretched over with a very vivid dream of some sort and merging the time. sometimes i wish my dreams were more vivid, but i suppose i would get confused if it were otherwise.

i have nothing in my pockets.

these days seem to be so filled with things, activities planned and relationships built and reforged, past memories remembered and new dreams found. i'm not sure why, it's like my life's speed has been tweaked up a notch. do i blame the teenage years, i wonder? they always say that this is the happiest time of your life, and i think i agree, for in all the rushing by of moments you find this beauty in the people you know and love, and it stays with you forever, whatever that impact is, and changes our life from then on.

wow, i love life, and the people i know, and the things i get to do/am doing/hope to do. though it gets so tough sometimes and you just don't know what to do and it's like the sky's tumbling in and the floor's forming walls around you. i suppose it's all part of it, and the things you treasure and have put your hope in are the things that help you, and keep you going. it's the absence of these that lead to the loss of hope i think. i am very blessed and very thankful to have things i can hope in.

there are things i wish i could change, but cannot.

when you're fine but your friend's not, how do you help?

(there are things so beautiful in this world it's almost impossible that they exist... because of all the imperfection that is in this world too i suppose)

wow

mm