100

wow

it's my hundredth post!
ahhhh!!!! *fans myself with hands in kylie way*

XD

hahahaha
what shall i talk about

mm whee today the pastor gave a really interesting sermon. [if you're not comfortable reading the following, it's ok. just skip to the next part. ] like talking about heaven and hell. what's heaven really? people see it as a place where you have no worries, where everything is good and as it should be, happy, content, joy, peace. mm.... so where is heaven? where God is (according to the Bible). and so it follows to ask.... where is God? everywhere! so.... heaven is everywhere? huh?
mm and yeah he explained that if you actually have the knowledge and come to the realisation of God's presence, then yeah, that's heaven. and i suppose it's true, cause when you know that God is there, you're comforted and glad and you feel peaceful. so yeah. and then when they say that "when you die you go to heaven" i suppose it's a state where everyone around you is in the same realisation, and the realisation is continuous, and yeah, it's like paradise.
mm or maybe i'm explaining it wrong. i'm not so sure about the second part.
and so, he went on to define hell. and hell is the opposite of heaven, which means it's where God is not. it's so full of sin that he forsakes the place. (it's not that he can't go there, it's that he chooses not to). and yeah imaging being trapped in a cell and there's no way out, and you're stuck here forever, and there's really nothing you can do. imagine the hopelessness that comes with it. and that's the way hell is. cause there's no hope of escaping, cause God isn't there. and you're just stuck there with the knowledge that you're never going to be with him. and that knowledge is enough to torture you for eternity, and it's the suffering that is described figuratively when the Bible talks about burning and sulphur and tongues of flame... yeah... the suffering is so much that it's like burning you....
and for me, this just called to me, cause... if you've seen the hope, and you're surrounded by all the hopelessness, how can you not want to spread it?
ahhhhh
the thing is i don't know how.
God help me, please....
[it's over now]

mm yeah...
and yesterday an idea popped up in my head - finally - a plot for nanowrimo!
whee.....

it's quite fun. i won't go and describe it here cause i've described it too many times already and if you really want to know just ask me haha.

mm

sigh

lala

i dunno. it's my 100th post, what else do i have to say?

haha

i suppose blogging is quite fun. there really isn't a big point to it - i could always do without it - but it's fun anyway, so i'll just continue. it's interesting to have a place where everyone can see what you have to say, what you have to share. course you have to be careful what you say, but yeah... it's good.
mm....

wheee

i realise that all the school work and studying and nano planning has drained a lot of words out of me. whee....

just that
once again
a message to all of you
love you guys
a lot
really i could never live without you
just someone to talk to, someone who listens, who talks back
it's like a shoulder to lean on
you can always count on it
and yeah
i thank you guys for it
=)

haha

whee

what else to say???

i dunno

indeed

erm.......

i should really get back to work haha

yep

~sometimes the world is so beautiful~