my turn

okay my turn to go all philo and stuff

i'll tell you what my anchors are, and don't start presuming stuff about it. just listen, if you will.
you are fully exused to stop reading whenever you wish.

kylie has these anchors in life that basically keep her sane and help her keep going on. i have them too. but give me some time to get my thoughts sorted out. kylie's post has thrown me off balance for a while.

all of us want love. we want to have it from others, we want to give it. it's not really possible for a human to survive without love. so that's why we look for friends and acceptance. it's natural. a need. so where how do i stay anchored? i've got God. and i can tell that he loves me. he gave me friends to survive in this life. in fact, everywhere i've ever gone, all the schools and countries and places i've ever been to, he's always given me someone, to talk to, to be with. in fact he gave me two in most places. and even if it doesn't seem i've got anyone, i'll still know that i've got him. yep.

there are a few things in life that if i didn't have, i'd go mad.

love, peace, joy, truth.
and ever-dependability.

and God's the only one that can give me all those things. all the time. i don't think i could be so joyful mostly without knowing, deep inside, that he's here, there to protect me, always beside me. and it was him that was with me during all those exams that kept me from freaking out. peace. love? he's loved me in too many ways. don't ask me to list them out. start with KYLIE and RASHI at the top of the list. it'll go on forever.

truth. how do i know it's the truth, you ask. how do i know for sure that he exists, that God is real. now i hope i'm not going all preachy and whatever here, but it's true.

one great argument that's going on and has been going on for a long time, is WHERE DID THE UNIVERSE COME FROM? scientists say big bang, evolution. it all happened by chance. but then, could it be possible that, for example, your resulted from an explosion? okay, lets just say it did happen, there was a big bang. so can we make little bangs to see waht would happen? we've made a lot of those. bombs. now tell me, did anything good ever come out of these bangs? just chaos and destruction, not order and beauty and creation. the universe couldn't have happened by chance, could it? i'm not a very good writer, but i hope you get my point.

so if it wasn't by chance, then it must be by design. who designed it? God. well if God designed it, then we are his creation. and what should we then do? it's like a person operating a machine. waht do we do with it? well we can obviuosly ask the maker of the machine. so to find out what we should do, we ask the creator as well. and he gave us an instruction booklet. the Bible. and a hotline. Prayer. Now is that love or waht?

mmm

if you disagree with me, fine. but i have to say waht i have to say. it's too big. even bigger than that post entitled explosion. sigh.

i just wish taht....

lately i've been wishing a lot. here are a few

i wish taht i could go back to singapore.
i wish that my ezcema would get better.
i wish that the three of us would stay together.

now one more

i wish that i had talked about this earlier.

another way to prove that God's real is experience. sometimes, i really know God's there. once i had to make a decision and i didn't know that to do. and i was going all frustrated and stuff cause of it. and then i just decided to pray. after that, i just felt this peace inside of me. not sure how to explain it. not sure it's explainable. but i knew that it was God.
once steph shared this at prayer group. hope you don't mind me writing it here steph. she was looking for here mp3 and she couldn't find it no matter where she looked. in here bag, here desk, cupboards, whatever. then she just thought i'm not depending on God at all. after praying, she found it 2 minute later. is that cool or what?

i can't remember what else i have to say.

for too long have i postponed this.

promises.

a few promises i have made in my life, and a few more taht i make now.

i promise to not take drugs or smoke ever in my life
i promise to not have premaritual sex
i promise to always stay together with kylie and rashidah
i promise to always love, and to do do all things that i do in love

and i hope that you guys can remind me if i ever get off track.

music. filling my soul
laughter. music to the soul

haha.

and i highly recomment high school musical songs to those who haven't listened to them yet. they'e terrific. just to go out of point for a while.

mm

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